Life is FULL! How fun! Yes, of course, it can be tiresome, stressful, lonely, whatever it might be, but think of it like this....You only have each day to live. You only have each hour, each minute, each second, nano-second....Each breath. I recently read a passage in a book by Mark Nepo "Is it possible that, with every inhalation, we take in the world and awaken our souls? And with each exhalation, do we free ourselves of the world, which inevitably entangles us? Is this how we fill up and empty a hundred times a day, always seeking the gift of the two breaths? Perhaps this is the work of being."
I practice waking up as early as my body will allow, which tends to be much earlier than a typical musician's schedule, and if I wake thinking anything negative or tiring, I tell myself to stop. I tell myself to think something positive, encourage myself, and have gratitude for the day and for those who will be in it. I tell myself to go conquer it, no matter the potential obstacles or tedious boredom. I think about each thing being not a necessity, but a joy! Breathing is indeed a necessity, but it indeed is also a joy! There is joy in being. There is a joy in being alive! And being full! And there is joy in being thankful, for even the smallest things.
Every day, I remind myself to be thankful for the opportunity to do something as minute as....say...um, sending an email, for example. Because A) I have the brain, the education, the fingers, the computer, the electricity, the interaction, the opportunity...to send the email. Many people don't have some of those things. And B) Sending things out, sending out emails, sending out love, sending out energy, sending out dreams, sending out songs, are all like sending out ships. Something will return with your day's treasure. It's inevitable. But nothing will return if you don't send something out.
I digress some. I think every day is about seeking, sending out, conquering and being thankful. I certainty didn't mean to romanticize something as mundane as sending out an email, but I mean to illustrate the importance of remembering that each moment, no matter how miniscule it seems, has meaning. I also believe in being thankful for the smallest things that we might otherwise take for granted; breathing, flipping on a light switch, the name "Mom" popping up on your cell phone screen, the opening notes of a song that suddenly take you back to a meaningful moment in your life, having two arms and two legs, the door that locks all of your belongings inside the place you live, the small mistakes we make, the big life-changing moments, the sound of nothing when a storm takes out the electricity and suddenly you see how noisy every day modern life actually is. Awww. Breathe.
I hope you wake up and take the day with gusto and own your story, feel grateful for it all, good and bad, heartache and love, loss and gain, life and death, fun and work. It's so good to be full. It truly is.